Dear readers, how are you? Are you starting to smell the mercy of spring? The warm breeze and noises that come along with changing seasons have been not lost on me these last fews weeks. My life is in a seasonal change and I am cautiously just watching it with a hot toddy and cheese pizza. I mean, I am ready for anything with that kind of back up, am I right?
So, my fearless fighter is back at school full time and I can NOT express how wonderful her teacher is. I have a pocket full of people over these last few years that I would give angel wings to if I could and she is one of those people. Everything you can imagine a caring, warm teacher to be, she is. She is fighting her own health battle similar to E's and boy has that helped my girl feel secure. Needless to say, I tried to freak out about her return to school (which I did for about six hours), and then we just all fell into place. Just a normal pace and routine and she is just a ray of sunshine. I knew she needed her 3rd grade community, but boy is she happy to be back. Her counts of being on maintenance are being watched and so far, they are right on point. She takes most of her meds at home and we do it early. Before any exhaustion sets in. That is key and we have a handful of food that we can grind the meds up in and we are good right now. This is an up and down process. We hit walls of, "I WANT A BREAK", but we make it. I totally get it, but baby girl you have come so far. Keep going. Just keep going.
So, as I went through the hell months of August -January, I promised I would take care of myself/other stuff. I have a plan of sections and bits, because who can even start on that bit of excitement?
Phase One:
I gave myself a week to get her settled and then...BAM. I went crazy. I scheduled 5 doctors appointments in 5 days. That week made me cray. I went to my PCP and said I need every lab work section done to ease my brain that I am okay. I am a ball of nerves and I need to start unwinding this mess. I was more than excited to see my labs looked great and I am set for the year. Praise Jesus. I also discovered I have pearly whites and no cavities. N and R had a cleaning, R had a 2.5 year check up and E had her numbers checked. I can not with that many appointments, never again. But, we made it and for the most part it was all a great success and they are over. Whew.
Phase Two is a'comin:
I am getting my myself straight in the head. I need to get my behind to counseling. I have my favorite gal, but she doesn't take our new insurance. I need to just get it figured out and go while I have some much needed time off. I start my new gig in June, so this is a sweet spot on my calendar. I also am starting to get back into workout classes that are high paced, high energy, sweat it out kind of things. This is my real therapy, but the two combined are a powerhouse.
Phase Three:
This is yet to be determined, but it will involved getting my love and I back on focusing on us a little. We were pushed to all kid mode, but we need to reset ourselves and we both know this phase is coming, so we are excited to go there after I get myself together. I am no good to anyone if I can't find my peace first. :)
My boys are doing great and getting bigger by the day. N has a loose tooth and that is the coolest thing ever and R climbs to the top of the jungle gym thing at school by himself and it is all he can talk about. I am a lucky gal. That is all.
I am going to find the sunshine before these April showers take it away.Hmmm.
Until Next Time.
-Jenn
